is this the way it's going to be?

so we went for drinks and food with the boy's work colleagues tonight. it left me agitated and grumpy, not because they weren't nice people but just because we're so at the mercy of other people.

I'm too grumpy and brutally honest to make new friends and I miss just being me and at ease. with new people you have to watch what you say. its so annoying. I also have no idea when my next social event after Saturday will be - although I'll be catching up with Jo soon i am sure she doesn't want to see me all the time! I miss having a strong network of friends. as the boy says, he and I will make our own fun.